Essa Exhale

a thing about love… (July 13, 2010)

Amor non discitur, amor cognoscitur, sed id non animadvertis donec amorem invenis.

Love is not something you learn, love is something you know, but do not realize until you find it.

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From Carmina Burana (Omnia sol temperat)

LATIN:

ama me fideliter,
fidem meam nota,
de corde totaliter
et ex mente tota,
sum presentialiter
alens in remota;
quisquis amat taliter,
volvitur in rota.

TRANSLATION:

love me faithfully,
taking heed of my loyalty,
with all your heart,
with all your mind.
i am closest to you
when I am far away;
whoever loves like this
rides on the wheel.

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Infra Dignitatem

LIFE:

i wonder…. why are some things invented only to be undignified? they were created for a reason but then there’s no dignity in how they’re being used.

i know i have a purpose and i know it’s so much more than what i’m living for right now. yes, i am bigger than this. bigger and so much better. but what am i really worth?

i have dreams. everyone does. i know for sure that if i get where i needed or wanted to be, i’d increase in value. but i’m not sure if that’s what i really want. i do want to be something in this world but i do NOT want a kind of life wherein i would live it only so people could either be pleased or be disgusted. they have their lives. i have mine. yes, we need others. but we need them to function…not so we can judge, compare, compete, and race through the end. the end…by that i mean death.

let me ask you. what do you think you’re here for? don’t know? don’t worry. many of us are clueless but deep inside we know we are worth something. so if i were you…figure it out. evaluate. are you doing what you’re supposed to be doing?

…or are you just another puppet?

do yourself a favor and cut off those strings. you deserve to chase the other end of YOUR rainbow…because seriously…it’s not paradise when it’s someone else’s paradise.

dignity means worth. there are many ways to substantiate something or someone’s worth, we each have our own. if that is so, we are responsible for putting ourselves beneath dignity simply by looking down on the one we see in the mirror. i suggest that we set our idea of value in neutral. life is full ups and downs after all. it’s a roller-coaster. just ride it. don’t think too highly of yourself because pride is like cancer…it betrays you and you never know when it kills you. but also…not too low because you make yourself vulnerable and people will step on you. instead, be accepting of whatever you’re thrown at. say to yourself, “i will go higher and it won’t last but i’ll take on the challenge. i may go down but i can make it on top again.”

LOVE:

at first… we question…. “is my being with this person infra dig?”

“does he or she deserve me?”

well that’s just unfair. we don’t do the judging. big NO. when we choose to be with that person, ACCEPTANCE is the better reason. it shouldn’t be “i love you because…” or “i love you if…”

“i love you.”

period.

that’s how it should be.

PERSONAL:

to YOU… you know who you are. i know you were once afraid that i might not be able to accept you for your past. you should be over that. i know i am. because even if it’s bad, it’s still a part of you. and for that i love you. you often make my being not-so-open an issue. it’s not that i don’t want to tell you or that i’m hiding things from you. I WILL TELL YOU. i just don’t know what to talk about yet. if it crosses my mind, believe me i will. and you have to accept it not because you promised but because to love is to accept. it’s not a test whether you really do, but it gives me a peace of mind to know. i will believe anything you tell me because to love is also to trust. do you trust me? if your answer is “no”, you don’t love me.

ART:

you don’t have to be the best for me to stay,

stay in love with me and i’ll never go away.

you don’t have to be better than you are now…

now is as good as forever, that’s a vow.

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Cadence

i can hear the beat. can’t you?

i hear it perfectly. don’t you?

it’s as if it’s right in front of me..

well actually it’s inside of me.

i’ve finally found that something,

something that causes something else…

my emotions are stirred up,

thoughts are filled…

filled with questions,

but i’m rather thrilled.

there it goes again…

that sound i used to be afraid of hearing.

it’s meaning…

it’s getting clearer…

it’s message..

it’s getting nearer..

when you’re around, it happens.

when you’re away, it’s worse.

you are that repeated word

in my favorite verse.

i used to be afraid of this sound..

how it echoes…

now it’s melodic…

i love how it goes.

it’s louder now,

it’s faster.

but i let it command me…

like a master.

who says replays are boring?

they’re not.

it helps correct past errors..

and you can start a better plot.

so, do you hear it now?

that thumping sound..

is it telling you that

we’re abound?

if it is…

then it all makes sense…

i’m not insane afterall..

you’ve been causing the cadence.

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